So i thought i just “missed you”, but then after that dream last night, i realized i REALLY FUCKIN MISS YOU.
i just wish we didn’t fade away and were still close……..
i’ve just been ignoring everything. avoiding the pain. But today it hit me. it’s been one week since my cousin in mexico, was kidnapped. I went to his facebook page earlier and i got emotional as fuck. i’m not close to him like my brother is. But it still hurts. He taught me a few things. like how to tie a rope. ride a horse, drive stick, even whistle. they were little things, but it was still meaningful because he took time, went out of his way, just to teach me some things. crying as i’m writing this, sucks. i’m trying to keep a positive attitude for my parents and brother who have been so off this whole week. but i’m breaking right now. All i can do is pray and leave it in gods hands. i’m praying god returns you home safe cousin. I miss you….